7th August 2017 – My life is just about as hectic as it has ever been at the moment. Not that I’m complaining! I love spending time with my son and I really appreciate that he appreciates the time we spend together. I’m building amazing memories with him and learning so much about myself in the process. I am also making a huge effort to make progress in as many area of my life as I can. I’m not complaining because I am busy. I love being busy, I love getting things done and I love that I can’t really remember the last time I sat down and watched TV of an evening and nor do I particularly want to…….
I guess I am a person who has never really sat still. I think I was born with ‘ants in my pants’, as my teachers always said. But I guess this is just me. To appreciate and understand me is to appreciate that this is the way I am. My energy and enthusiasm comes from this and I am starting to get my mind away from constant rumination and to throw that energy back in to what I love, getting stuff done and enjoying that journey with the people around me.
But the big question I have at the moment is what it means to be a man in 2017? I just don’t know anymore! Right now I am a COO, a daddy, a project planner for the work being done at the house, a landlord, a gardener, a cleaner, a sportsman, a friend, a son………… I jump from one role to another on a daily basis and have come to the conclusion that all I can do is to try and do my best at every single one of them and hope that is enough! As I take a few minutes to gather my thoughts and type this blog. I realize that there is a genuine authenticity about who I am. At school I received the headmaster prize for ‘my outstanding contribution to the life of the school’. This was because one day I would be playing football for the school, the next day I would be managing backstage for the drama club and the next taking part in a balloon debate. When I see an opportunity I really want to get involved.
Right now though, I question if I am doing enough? Should I be more of a daddy, work longer hours, do more for others? Or is the answer to carry on doing my best and to hope that when I arrive at the Pearly Gates it will be as a man who always tried to make the most of every day and everything that came his way?!