Monday 23rd October 2017 – One of the hardest things about being a Single Parent is holiday time. I guess that I am fortunate that this weekend my son and I spent our time with one of his little buddies and their family. The most important thing is that my son had an amazing time. I got to spend some really good quality time with him and swim, climb and run around the fabulous grounds of Longleat. I also got to hang out with other adults in the evening but I couldn’t help feeling like the odd one out. The hard part is seeing all of the ‘Happy’ families and wishing that I was one of them. I keep trying to tell myself to be happy for what I have got and to not bemoan what I don’t. But it is really hard. It is really hard to not imagine what might have been…………..
Centre Parcs runs like clockwork. Everything is brilliantly thought out and focused on the family. The staff are all incredibly helpful and friendly and the swimming pool and the outdoor play grounds just get better and better all the time as more features are added. There are always challenges to be had and boundaries to be pushed and my son always collapses in to bed at the end of the day exhausted from everything he has done. I can’t fault it as a destination and I know I will definitely go back soon. When I look around I know I am putting my absolute all in to the activities and I do think that my son and I are probably having about the best time of anyone in the whole village. I guess my feelings of sadness are all still in my head driven by the piece of my life that is out of my control. There will be more weekends like this and there will be so many more good times planned.
I really didn’t want to be a single dad! It breaks my heart every time I look in the mirror. But I love being a dad. I really do and holidays like this reinforce things perfectly!